To My Grandkids,
By the time you read this, this land might've blown up.
     The past week, I have been through Texas, Louisiana, Colorado, Garden of the Gods, Wyoming, Yellowstone National park, Grand Tetons, and back to Montana! When I passed through Louisiana, I got to see family, and pick up Laci Bee! We went camping with my cousin, Olivia and her boyfriend Malcom- and boy was it interesting.. After we had dinner, out of nowhere, Momma Earth decided to DOWNPOUR on us. At first, everyone ran to the van, but I stayed out and started dancing in the rain. After a few minutes, everyone joined in on singing, dancing, and laughing- arms out wide twirling freely in the rain.  It was one of those moments where you feel invincible, exhilarated, and FULL of love for the life you live. 
     When we hit the road, we found a campsite in the middle of nowhere in Colorado. Since there was nobody around for miles, the first thing I did was strip down and take off running, dancing and laughing, and living another moment of feeling on top of the world. There's no rules out in the middle of nowhere- if you want to run naked and free singing at the top of your lungs, you just DO IT. (if you haven't seen a pattern by now, I'm not a huge fan of clothes or shoes in general hehehe)
     At this point, we've got our mind set on visiting Yellowstone. We had another day or so of driving until we got there, so we camped out at a lake, went swimming, and had dinner in the lake. By then, it had been a couple days since we hit the road, so we had to take showers in the lake.. We had also showered in the rain the night we all danced together! (when you're on the road during a massive pandemic, it's hard to find proper showers that are open- so you take what you can get!)
     A day later, we made it to the Grand Tetons, which were gorgeous! We were headed for Yellowstone the next day, so we camped right in between the two at a campsite in a national forrest. Right off the bat we made friends with our camp neighbors, and spent a couple hours talking with them before splitting up for bed. The next day, we decided to go to Yellowstone together, so Elizabeth (a super sweet soul we met at the campsite!) hopped in the van and we headed in. Yellowstone was gorgeous, and still blows my mind that there was a massive super volcano right under our feet! For all we know, it could explode before you ever get to see it.. It was mind baffling to see the geysers, hot springs, extremophile bacteria, animals, and mud volcanoes. The next day, we woke up at 3 am to go into Yellowstone together and watch the sun rise. We drove in with our 4 car convoy, (our other awesome friend from the campsite, Colin, came with us too!) and Elizabeth made us fresh coffee! As we sat and ate breakfast together, we shared stories of ourselves, our art, our travels, and how we got to where we are today. 
     Another day of exploration goes by, and we all end up camping together outside of Yellowstone again. The next day, we had breakfast, did some Tarot readings, and said our goodbyes, ready to part ways and resume our own journeys! Colin still has a ways to go with his route, and then back home to New York to find a new apartment, and luckily, Elizabeth is headed to Montana as well, so we'll get to hang out again :)
     
    Now, we're back home in Montana, and with that, my first trip of van life comes to a bittersweet end. The past month and half has been the best of my life so far! I don't plan on staying put for very long, but since I can't go to India this year anymore (ugh- Covid..) I will have to decide on a new route. Maybe to the East coast next time-? I do love the west coast though- maybe I'll find myself settling there for a bit.. Who knows.. All I know is that VANLIFE is the life for me, and I am already itching to hit the road again- BE PATIENT JORDAN!!
     I'm so excited to take you on journeys of our own, it will be so fun!!
     Until then, I'll keep adding on to the adventures stories to tell you all about :)

         Love, 
                Your barefoot naked runnin granny J :)

 ​​To My Grandkids,
Let's take a different route with this. Do you realize how amazing our universe is?

​     Since I'm on the road a lot, I've been listening to a lot of podcasts to keep me entertained. I found one channel that I LOVE, and they have been stretching my brain in every way possible. They talk about aliens, ghost stories, murders, the universe, our brains, and so much more. One thing that has had me really interested lately is how crazy our universe is.
     Looking up into the starry night, you can see billions of stars, but there are billions and billions more that you can't even see, but are right in front of your eyes! They aren't all stars, they are also other galaxies, universes, planets, stars, black holes, and so much more that we don't even know of. Some of the stars you see might not even exist. Light has to travel millions of light years to reach our eyes, and by the time we can actually perceive the light, the star might be dead, and we are just seeing the last rays of its life. Same with the sun, the light we SEE is 8 years old.. 'Outer space' goes on for infinity- can you even fathom that? Our universe is ever expanding, and 'space' never stops. Past what we know, it's just infinite nothingness.
     If you bring it back in to our planet, it is still just as crazy. Every single living organism on this planet is so intricately designed to fit into a grand system. Down to the tiny bee that pollinate flowers, to the largest whale that coasts deep under the sea. Think about the water cycle- The water that is collected in the sky eventually rains down, watering the plants, and the soil. The plants and soil then provide food to insects, animals, and humans. The water also helps trees grow, which gives off oxygen for living things to breath, and removes CO2 from the air. The water goes through many cycles, and eventually evaporates back up into the sky to start the cycle over again.
     Even our bodies are AMAZING. The human body is a whole system that is unfathomably intricate. From the skin that protects your muscles, down to every microscopic neuron in you brain that fires a certain way to make you function as a whole. It's insane! 
     When you look at our fingerprints compared to the inside of a tree, or the palm of your hand compared to the spine of a leaf, you'll see how similar we really are to the things on this Earth.  Every single thing on this planet is connected. The same creator that made the storms in the sky, the coral at the bottom of the ocean, the oxygen, also made us, our blood, and the whole universe. We are crafted with the same materials, from the same place, just sculpted differently. The neurons and atoms inside your brain are even connected with the galaxy a billion light years away. Can you imagine that?
     There are so many things about our existence that is unknown. We don't even fully know what sits at the bottom of our oceans. The ocean that is ON OUR PLANET! We don't truly know where we came from, how we got here, or what we're doing here. We don't know if we are the only humans that exist out there. We don't even know why our bodies require sleep, or exactly why/how we dream.. We don't know if aliens really exist or not- I mean for all we know they could be walking among us and we don't even realize. We don't know what a black hole really is, or what's inside it. We don't know the effects of certain things in the human body. We don't know  what happens when we die. 
     There are theories, religious beliefs, folk tales, rumors, blah blah blah- but nobody actually KNOWS 100% certain. Isn't that bizarre? I have my beliefs- and I am very passionate in what I believe, but you have to stay open minded because no matter how much we think we understand, or try to prove this or that- 
                           nobody really KNOWS.
                         Existence is a mystery.

I hope you have a spark of wonder in your heart that makes you question this life.
Have an open mind, and decide for yourself what feels like the best answer. I hope you never mask that spark, but instead, you explore every corner of wonder you could possibly imagine. Stretch your mind, THINK about things on a deeper level, and only believe what you see and feel personally, not what you are told to believe.

This life is cRaZY, explore every possibility.
I might be out of my mind, but I think that's the point.

​Love,
​your crazy Granny J :)

 "I am That."

To My Grandkids,
​     Last week I was at the Grand Canyon, and it was unbelievable. 
     When I first pulled into the parking lot, something in my gut told me I needed to leave my phone in the car, and just BE there in the moment.  The second I was close enough to see the Grand Canyon,  I was so overwhelmed by how GREAT it is. I walked on the trail that goes along the rim, and I saw an area where you can leave the trail and go down onto a rock that sticks out over the canyon. Of course, I climbed down there, and walked to the edge. I sat on the corner, legs dangling over the edge, and realized that this moment... THIS MOMENT is the moment I live and breathe for.  I was so overwhelmed with LOVE for this life, myself, and just pure AMAZEMENT. A tear rolled down my face, and with it left every bit of doubt I ever had for myself. Every single bump in the road, every single day I had ever felt stuck- Its gone. Nothing but a drop, falling 6,000 feet to its death, leaving me with complete PEACE. I am HERE, out in the world doing what I always dreamed, and it's only the beginning of the rest of my life.
     When we were at camp a couple weeks ago, I met an amazing man named Dana. One morning, we were all sitting together having brunch, and he asked me a very special question.. Everyone at camp was talking about their "moment", how they got to where they were today, and the big AHA moments that make us who we are. The answers ranged from a job lost, turning out to be a soul searching journey, filling every day with adventures, to spiritual awakenings, to having children, traveling the world, etc etc.. Without hesitation, I told him my moment was RIGHT NOW. Every single breath I take is honestly the best "moment" of my life... and its TRUE.
     I could go on and on trying to explain how exhilarating it feels to appreciate life, but nothing compares to making that decision, and living that way.
     As I sat above the canyon, I met some amazing people. One lady I only talked to in passing, but she sticks out in my head. I was sitting on the edge, and I heard her ask her husband how I got down there, so I went over and showed her to climb down. The whole time she was thinking about it, her husband was trying everything in his power to keep her in his reach- he did NOT want her in 'harms way'. At one point he even grabbed her arm out of fear, and I shouted up to the couple that "Life on the edge is the best way to live!" With that, she pushed him away, and began climbing down, ignoring his plea for her to stop. When she got down to the edge, she stopped in her tracks- stuck in complete awe. She thanked me for getting her out of her comfort zone- not only is the view better from the edge, but she overcame a fear, and did not let anyone get in the way of her living her best life in the moment.
     
     If there is one thing traveling has taught me (actually, theres a million things its taught me) it would be the simple act of being GRATEFUL. 
     To be grateful is to appreciate every moment. Every breath, every adventure, every soul to cross my path, and every lesson to be learned. To be grateful is to be open to the BEAUTY of the world, rather than focusing on the negative. It is to acknowledge how truly blessed we are. It is to LOVE every person we cross, and show them how special they are.
     If you are grateful for all that you have, your big "moment" will be every time you inhale- it will become your LIFE.
      
Life is amazing, and it is also a choice.
You either get out there and live-
or you don't.

I am going to take you all over the world one day. There is no better lesson than the one learned by BEING THERE. I'm so excited to meet you one day!
I Love you!
-Your Baby Grandma J

P.S.
Put it on your bucket list to watch the sun SET and RISE over the Grand Canyon!!
​I watched both, and they are AMAZING.

​To My Grandkids,
     
​   First rule of camp: You always have to have a flower in your hair!


    This past week has been the best of my life. I have driven through Montana, Idaho, Washington, Oregon, and now California! I have met so many amazing people, and have tons of wild stories already! 
    When we first pulled in to California, we pulled over to camp for the night, and it turned out to be the best couple days of my life so far. We were parked right on the beach, so my front door opened right to the ocean!  Throughout the 3 days we stayed there, I met the most amazing bunch of people. There ended up being a group of 15 or so people that came through our camp, and each and every one was so special. We would all sit around the fire together for hours, playing guitar, dancing under the stars, and sharing our stories. We had group meals, and would come together around the fire to eat. There were people of all ages, life paths, and from all over the country- all were welcome. Some people were musical, others were listeners, some were adventurers, others were observers. We were all so different, but at the same time, the same.. When we needed to shower, we would walk into the woods to a freshwater creek and wash our hair together. At one point, Bryanna and I went back to the creek with our lovely fairy friend, Julie, and just like in Montana, we stripped down and took a leap into the COLD COLD water! Once again, EXHILARATING! As a group, we learned so much not only about each other, but ourselves as well!
​     At the end of each day, we found ourselves gathered around the fire, laughing, sharing, learning, enjoying, and EXPERIENCING life in the purest form. My lovely friend, Tysun, was showing us his tattoos, and when asked why he had a campfire, the answer was simple, but so special; community. At first, I was like oh yea cool- but then I thought about it, and truly, it is one thing that never fails to bring people together. A simple campfire that brought us all together at camp, and presented me with memories and stories I will always cherish. A simple campfire that provides us with meals to share, warmth to sit out under the stars together all night, playing music, and sharing what makes us all who we are. A campfire that connected strangers at the right place and time- a simple campfire that built a community. 
    The last day we spent together, we started the morning with a group meditation, standing in a circle together, opening our hearts and being grateful. We gave hugs, and started to say goodbye, but its never that easy to leave the ones you love, so it didn’t end there. We traded crafts, gifted special items, and exchanged contact information. There was a lovely man named Cameron, who I gifted a special item of mine, and he hand crafted me a bow and arrow. It was so special, and my heart feels full every time I look at it! After saying goodbye to the other half of the group, only a couple of us stayed at the beach. We were with a very special River Godess (to say the least!) named Sari, and she made us pancakes before we hit the road. When it was time to part ways, we ended up not being able to leave each other right away, so we stayed together for the night, and then Sari and I spent another night off on our own. What an amazing, beautiful soul she is.. I could go on and on, but I’d have to make another blog to express how much I enjoyed my time with her! (I will!)
     The whole time we were there, none of us had service, which at first was a bummer, because I’m a teenage girl who’s guilty pleasure is social media- but it turned out to be the biggest blessing ever to not have technology for a couple days. Since none of us had our phones, we were creating much more in depth relationships, and getting to know each other face to face, soul to soul, rather than being distracted by the internet and social media. 
    It was seriously the best couple days of my life, and the most simplistic. It doesn’t take material things to be happy, and it sure a hell doesn’t need technology. This world is always changing, evolving, and getting more advanced, and a lot of us get caught up in the new trends, latest technology, and temporary fixes.. Try and remind yourself to BE HERE in the present moment, because it is the only moment that ever truly exists, and you can never get it back. Put your phone down (or your flying cars by now) and get outside to experience first hand for your own eyes!! You will have the best time of your life that way, and make the most meaningful relationships!
     Go make a campfire and see what happens :)

     Even though I’m only 19, I’m still looking forward to meeting you someday! Trust me, we’ve got lots to talk about! 
                                Love, 
                                     Granny J :)

To My Grandkids,

     Wow, life is crazy! I've got a lot to update you on, so here's a little thought-dump.
In the past week, my friend Bryanna flew to Montana, and we moved into my van, Rosie! I had the blue one at first, but it needed some work, so I sold it and got a new one! Her name is Rosie, and she is a 1991 Dodge Ram Van, just like the other one, except it's a little smaller, and it is pink and white!! We have it all set up inside like a mini home, and it is AWESOME!! The past couple days, we have parked by Glacier National Park in Montana. GNP isn't actually open right now cause the world is still closed down from the virus, but there is a bridge called Belton Bridge that we found a pretty awesome campsite by! When we wake up there, we are overlooking the  river, have mountains on all sides of us, and we are right by the train tracks, so we get to watch it go by! The stars out there at night are UNREAL, they are so bright!
     For our kitchen, we have a mini camping grill that we light up and cook on, and we have a water jug that hangs from the ceiling as our 'sink', (we actually have 17 gallons of water around the van, and we get it from all natural spring spouts off the mountain!) and we have plates, bowls, utensils, seasonings etc etc. (everything that you would need to cook!) Our closet is under the bed, its just a bunch of drawers that have our stuff in it, and we have a shelf in the middle of the van (aka the living room) that holds everything else like books, shoes, chargers, seasons, food, etc.. For a fridge we have a cooler that sits in the front, and we have a powerstrip that plugs into the car so we can charge everything on the road. We also have my guitar and ukelele that just float around the van. 
     For 2 girls living in a van, we've got a pretty awesome little set up. We also use the roof of the van as our "upstairs" aka the kitchen and second living room, where the guitar jam out seshs happen :)
     For now, we are still in Montana, waiting to hit the coast. We're waiting for our license plates to get in , and then we're off to the beach!
      Yesterday, we ventured out across the hungry horse dam and we ended up finding a boat dock that had a bunch of tree stumps around it. We were laughing, singing, dancing, and when I walked out to the water, it made me fall silent. It was so gorgeous and peaceful out there. Everything was still and calm, reminding me to be still in the moment and appreciate how great it is to be ALIVE. We walked to the edge of the water, climbed up on a tree stump, and looked out across the water, admired the mountains, the lush green everywhere, and snow at the top. Everything was beautiful. It was pretty chilly out there, and I jokingly asked Bry if she wanted to jump in, but we we're like nooo it's way too cold.. Actually... The fear of the cold made me want to do it even more.. So, we stripped, and took a leap without a second thought. IT WAS SOOO COLD, but afterwards, I felt EXHILARATED!! Honestly, that is the best feeling ever, instead of backing down, standing up to fear and doing what scares you. 
       That's when you feel most alive. 
      The best things in life live on the other side of fear.

       I can't wait to keep you updated with all the crazy stuff we get into on the road. We are gonna meet so many people, and have so many amazing stories to tell. 
It's only day 3 and we already have tons. We're also ready to have group camp outs- we have room for a few people in the van, a 3 person tent, 2 hammocks, and mats to lay out on the roof if they're really wild haha.
     It's gonna be great. 

     Even though I haven't met you yet, I'm thinkin about ya kid. I'm so excited to sit around a fire with you and your friends one day and tell you all the wild times of my teenage years :)
               I love you always, 
                            Your barefoot runnin nana J :)

To My Grandkids,

Lately, there is a lot going on.
     A couple days ago, I lost my Papa Deano, and flew home to be with family. Since being home, I have met with family I haven't seen for a LONG time, got to see my friends, pass by my childhood homes here, and got to see my dog, Kaycee Joe, (who is LOVING life there!). Just so you are caught up with the scene here, the world is in a massive pandemic panic right now, so I've been cautious, and traveling feels really weird because everyone is wearing masks and gloves, and staying away from each other.
     Since I've been here, everything feels off. Granted, I'm not here for a great reason, but still, I don't feel right. As I am with the people I grew up with, my friends and family, I keep thinking back on the past couple years of my life, and how I got to where I am today. I won't get too deep into it cause I've already written a different blog all about how my past created who I am today- which I may or may not post because it got pretty personal... But to give you an idea, I am not the same person I was when I was walking these streets, laughing with my friends, living in these homes. That being said, I feel out of place, like I don't belong here anymore. 
     I don't. 
     AND THAT'S A GOOD THING.
     Obviously I love and miss everyone here dearly, and it's nice to see them, but i'm glad it's in passing, because I DON'T belong here. I belong out in the world, exploring, hiking barefoot up a mountain in Montana and hanging a hammock to watch the sunset. I belong on a beach, breathing in the salty air with a smoothie in my hand while I work on my business. I belong in a forest without my phone, only carrying my backpack and a yoga mat, or sitting by the Gange river in India with fellow yogis, enjoying the cool breeze, listening to the children play. I belong in my van, on the road to nowhere, stopping in the middle of the desert to appreciate the beauty of the stars. I belong OUT THERE.  
       And now, that's where I am. OUT doing what I love, in beautiful places that excite me, and fill me with wonder and energy. AND I LOVEEEE EVERY SECOND OF IT.
     (Absolutely no offense to anyone from my hometown, I love you all- and I know some of you LOVE it in Cameron, and that's okay, just not where I personally am supposed to be!!!)
     (let me get back to the main topic---)

     Your great grandpa Dean was a great guy. He was a Vietnam Veteran, and he left this world giving his last breath to save a womans life. I got to go on a vacation with him a couple months ago, which are stories you'll have to ask me about in person someday HAHAHA! I will link his obituary so you can read about him. He is in a much better place now, and he wouldn't want us to be sad, but rather to celebrate that he lived a great life!
https://www.dignitymemorial.com/obituaries/kansas-city-mo/james-masters-9146494?

                                                        Don't ever forget how short life is. 
                                                           Live every second of your life to the fullest,
                                                               because everything can change in one second.
                                                                Even though you don't exist yet,
                                                                 I  LOVE YOU!!!
                                                                  Love,  Nana J :)
   

To My Grandkids,

Soo.. I bought a van.. FINALLY!



  Let me just start off with this:
I HAVE WANTED A VAN FOR SO LONG. In my freshman year journals even, I would write about buying a van and traveling in it. Being able to go wherever I want, whenever I want, with who ever I want. Wake up in the mountains one day, and on the beach or in the forest the next. I've always been obsessed with the idea of it, and now I am putting it in ACTION in my life! The past couple days have been crazy- but beautiful.
    A couple days ago, I was in town with mom and I saw the Hippi Hut Bus (in the picture on the left) and I immediately was like PULL OVER RIGHT NOW I HAVE TO GO SEE THAT BUS!! When we got there, I called the number, and the bus was parked at his house, so he came right out and gave me a tour of it. His name was Tom- super cool guy. He showed me the bus, and told me stories of crazy stories with it. He used to take it to a Rockin The River music festival and sell art from it (and obviously its a work of art in itself). I thought it was soooo cool, but it was just too big for me, and I wanted a small van instead of a full RV bus.. I went back to town and told my friend Xandie all about it, and she FELL IN LOVE WITH IT! Next morning, we went back to his house and checked it out- she loved it- and bought it on the spot. Then I found a little dodge ram van on facebook, right away set up a time to go see it, and FELL IN LOVE WITH IT, so the same day, I went to go see it, and bought it. 
     That being said, Welcome Charlee to the adventure family :) She needs some love, but anything you want takes work- so I'm excited to start renovating her. (Charlee was the name of the sweet soul who owned the van before me. So grateful I met her, so I had to keep her memories in the van alive as well, and named it after her!)
     I didn't plan on buying a van before I go to India, but for a couple reasons, this just fell perfectly in place- so I took a leap and said YES!
     I have a lot of work ahead of me, but I'm ready. Not only am I set up to go to India in a couple months, but now I have a home on wheels- can someone pinch me?!?

     Some things I have learned from myself these past couple months-

• Life is too short to hesitate on your dreams
• IT IS NEVER TOO LATE
• Nobody will make your life happen except YOU
• The greatest joys in life live on the other side of fear
• Say YES to adventure, say YES to your dream life, say YES  to opportunity
• Gratitude makes magic happen
• You'll always meet the right people at the right time

Be GRATEFUL for everything you have, and BELIEVE that you deserve everything you desire!!

                                       I'm so excited to wake up everyday and live this beautiful life
                                              I'm so excited to share my stories with you along the way
                                                    I'm so excited to meet you one day.
                                                          Even though you don't exist yet, I LOVE YOU!!
                                                                 Love, Granny  J :)
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To My Grandkids,

You would never believe the switch..

Okay, I try to stay humble and keep personal stuff to myself, but this is my space to be open and honest- and well... Toot my own horn, so, toot toot.

     This past year has been the most unexpected year of my life.  A LOT has happened and A LOT  has changed. This time last year, I wasn't doing good.  I was overwhelmed with the challenges life threw in my face, and I was pretty miserable honestly.. Getting into that is for a different day- but I felt at the lowest in my life. Fast forward a couple months, I snapped. I booked a ticket to go to Montana for the NEXT DAY, packed up, and left. I immediately fell in love with this magical place. I stayed for a month, spent a lot of time with Mom and Mark, and felt soo at peace here. Sigh of relief. I went back to Cameron, and was super excited to see everyone again, but I KNEW right away I couldn't be there anymore.. So after a family vacation (yes yes, I will post that blog eventually haha) I moved to Montana.
   Best decision I've ever made for myself.
Yes, I miss my family and friends back home, and I love you all dearly!! But this was written in the stars for me, I know it. I have had so many amazing adventures, learned and grown so much, met so many amazing people who I also love dearly, and have met myself too :)   
     Now, I'm a morning person. GASP, I know. If you know me, that sentence alone should say a lot haha.. Here's my 'toot toot' moment. I have come SO FAR.  I could go on and on, but to say the least, I could not be more proud of the person I am today- a tree huggin, coffee drinkin, shampoo sellin, elderly lovin, yoga doin, plant powered, freak of nature.  I'm pretty amazing honestly. I'm so deeply in love with myself- even mirrors make me swoon...
     ANYWAY, my point of telling you how much I adore myself is this-
YOU are the only person you truly have to put up with for your whole life. You can never escape yourself, so love yourself. Turn yourself into a being you adore. Do WHATEVER IT TAKES (even if it means buying a one way for the other side of the country-or world) to become the person in your wildest dreams. YOU create your life, you are not defined by hard times, financial struggles, relationship issues, etc etc. YOU decide what your life looks like. No need to scroll through dating apps or wait desperately for a lover to come- you don't need a second half, you are a WHOLE person on your own. Look in the mirror, and realize how effin beautiful it is to be here.
     Love yourself. Spoil yourself. Be grateful for yourself. CREATE your life for yourself.
     Be humbly obsessed with yourself. Strive to be the absolute best version of yourself.
     Be everything you could imagine yourself to be, and more. Take care of yourself.

                 I love me, (And you of course, even though you don't exist yet!!) 
     I can't wait for you to hear all the crazy stories of "Your psycho granny did___ when she was younger!" cause my life is pretty magnificent. (toot toot)

                                                                                   Appreciate yourself, kid.
                                                                                         I love you so,
                                                                                                Gran Gran J :)

p.s. stop comparing yourself to others- you are not them, YOU ARE YOU.

  To My Grandkids,

I booked that shiz.. a couple times...

Throughout my life, my plans have changed A LOT- if you know me, you know I can't ever make up my mind haha... Well, one thing has always stayed the same- my love for traveling, and my desire to travel the world. Of all the things I've switched up on, (wanting to be a surgeon, scientist, scuba diver, musician, in the army, photographer, etc etc) I've always known I want to travel. 
     About 8 months ago, I decided to take a trip to Montana to see my mom, and immediately fell in love with this gorgeous state. After going back to small town Cameron, I decided I had to make the move. We had a cruise planned with my family for right before I came, which was AMAZING, and I have a whole blog written about it too, stay tuned ;) So we went on the cruise, and then from there,  I flew straight back to Montana. Booked that shiz, did that shiz, it's been great!
     Flash forward 3 months, I was looking into going on a trip somewhere, and was brainstorming it for a couple days. One morning, I woke up and decided to go to  a coffee shop and do some research.. Long story short, some things led me to finding a place called Goa, India, and I knew right away that's where I needed to go. I started doing some research on it, and I felt so emotionally overwhelmed, and connected to this place I had never even heard of... I was writing down ideas, and the sun broke through the clouds and sent a perfect beam right across my journal where it said Goa.. (This is also how I got the name 'SunGuided' because the sun always guides me when making decisions, and I always follow the sunny places/ bright moments on life- I'll go deeper into that later!) I thought about it for a couple days, and then just went for it... 
      Feb 1st, I decided to just book it, and stop making excuses. 
I am so excited for this next step in my life. I won't be leaving for a couple months, but I am NOT changing my ticket under any circumstances. I am sticking to it NO MATTER WHAT!
      When we dream about something, often we see it in our head, and we want to make a move on it, but we either make excuses for ourselves, or we just replay the idea in our head without taking action.. I have always been that way, but dreams will stay dreams, merely a thought that spikes your heart rate when you think about living it-  we settle for that feeling, instead of jumping in, and finding a way to make it happen.

Don't settle anymore. Take the first step, and DO IT. Stop thinking about it, and DO IT.
It will be stressful, but that's life. Either make it happen, or it won't.
You'll be so glad you did.

Even though you don't exist yet, I love you so. Dream big. Take a leap. Book the ticket. Grow, learn, and experience. Do It.
                                                            Love, your crazy grandma J :)

 To My Grandkids,

    Today is my 19th birthday :)
     Actually, it’s not really anything special except the fact that this is officially my last year as a teenager… Which is weird, and I feel old. Anyway, I’ve been thinking a lot about what the world will look like when you get these letters. Will the world be advancing still, or are we as advanced as we can be?  Obviously we are still advancing in technology very quickly, but how much more can we really do? Maybe more than I could even fathom..  If we did advance incredibly, what effect did it have on the earth? Are there robots walking around with you, teaching you in class, or shopping your groceries for you, or was that just and idea that spun around on TV? WEird. I wonder if the world is a better place, or if it is just as cruel as it can be now. Most people aren’t cruel, but some people are just hungry for a piece of paper that controls the world..
     I already feel like I’m living in the past, and I definitely think I should’ve been born into the 60’s. (1960’s) I want to/ (I WILL) travel and live in a van, and spread love and positivity.. Nowadays, people think I’m crazy for chasing a dream like that, but in the 60’s it was completely normal. Weird how time changes like that. It used to be so accepted and supported, and now people just don't understand why I won't just go to college like a "normal teenager"- Not that I really care, cause I don’t, I’m gonna chase my dreams regardless :). So yea, I wonder if stuff like this would be accepted in the society of your age. I wonder what jobs are like for you. Already, some of our jobs are being replaced with AI. I can’t imagine how much more could be replaced 50 years from now. Or maybe by then, people have come together, and our values have shifted to focus on the earth and helping/loving each other rather than tearing each other apart.

A girl can hope.
I hope the world is a better place while you're in it.
                                                    Even though you don't exist yet, I love you!
                                                                                       Love, Granny J :)

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