To My Grandkids,
Life is an ongoing journey, and so far, my journey has been fantastic!
Yesterday we took a trip to one of our sister islands- Culebra, Puerto Rico. After a 5:20 am wakeup call and over 3 hours of taxis, and ferry's, we finally made it to the all famous, well known Flamenco Beach! This beach is rated the best in the Caribbean, and among the top 5 most beautiful in the world! She didn't disappoint- those waters were crystal clear, turquoise, and deep dark blue as you went farther in. The sand was pearly white with shells scattered about, and the beach sat in a cove of luscious green hills and blue skies.
As soon as we stepped foot on the beach, our jaws dropped and I felt so grateful to be there! We stayed out in the sun all day, jumping in and out of the waves with childlike giggles being passed around the 4 of us. After a couple Pina Coladas on the beach (Did you know those originated from right here in Puerto Rico??) we walked down the beach to see the sunken military tanks right off the coast. They were in tact enough that we climbed up and stood atop what was once a war vehicle- strange feeling for someone who wants nothing but peace and love in this world.. It's better off rusty, broken down and halfway in the ground in my opinion.
After our time on the beach, it was time catch our ferry's back home. (yes, dos ferry) We made it all the way to the top of the boat on our first ride back and caught the sunset glistening over the ocean. After our second ferry ride we made it back to our island of Vieques.. But not quite home yet.. Since the ferry got in so late, there were no taxies at the port, so we ended up sitting on the side of the road in the middle of this town for about 30 minutes before we could find a ride home. (the downside of not having a car is that we usually walk everywhere on this island.. 30 min walk to the beach, an hour walk to get groceries- one way... ) But this would've been about a 2 hour walk at night so it was more worth it to sit with a thumb out for while. Don't have a heart attack mom or dad, we're a strong 4 and can fight off creeps in the night if need be haha!
Something that has been on my mind lately is embodying my entire message, not just the positive parts. When I post blogs or on social media, sometimes I feel like my life is chalked up to be too glamorous. Don't get me wrong- my life is AMAZING, and I love sharing my highlights with everyone!! However, sometimes I catch myself only posting the highs..
In order for me to be REAL with my audience, I wanted to share that I also have personal things that go on that I don't share much about. I still have roadblocks that come up, and doubt towards certain things. I'm still a young woman figuring out my path just like any other, so no, I don't have every little thing figured out! I take pride in my positive mindset that shines through any situation so it doesn't delve into a deeper problem, and having the confidence in myself that my choices are for my highest wellbeing. Although it may seem like free-sailing over here, I am human just like everyone else, and I want to share more of my growth process so it doesn't seem like I'm only sharing the good things.
As a Mindset Coach in training, this is something I have learned to be very important when trying to make connections with people and clients. When people only share the highlights, it seems as if we are holding back from sharing the lows so that we seem more respectable or seen as a higher level.. Well for me, I'd rather been seen as trustworthy, relatable, and REAL. So here I am, showing up as my AUTHENTIC SELF from here on out. I am example for the people and friends that I coach- I want them to show up as 100% themselves, so I must start the train by doing it myself.
All GROWTH baby!!!
This journey is amazing, and it all depends on your mindset.
Your self-loving-sunshine-dancing-beach-running Granny J :)
Did you catch what my goal is? I'm currently enrolled in classes to become a certified Mindset Coach! Through my business I will touch the lives everyone around me and show them how they can change their life through learning to love themselves.
CHANGE YOUR MIND= CHANGE YOUR LIFE.
To My Grandkids,
Just like todays date, this life is a 10/10 so far :)
This week I've been thinking a lot about the power of my own mind. I have been journaling a lot and taking time to really picture what my best life looks like. (Check out the 'Live Well' page on this website to see what journal prompts I've been up to. They are revolved around self reflection, goal setting, and self love!) Don't get me wrong, I am already living my best life- but I'm talking about my goals, and what areas I still have growth to do. Through some self reflection, I have realized a couple key things I'd like to share with you. Take what feels right, leave what doesn't!
One thing that always comes up is 'desire'. The power of desire can be an unstoppable force. Well.. Can be.. If you desire something, there are two outcomes that could happen. You could either look at it and say 'wow, wouldn't that be nice...They are lucky to have that... That's my dream life, but..." and be fine with the fact that you 'can't' or 'won't' have it.. It becomes just another daydream, a whisper in your imagination that won't become tangible.. And with no belief in yourself, it slips away.
You could have desire and be hooked. Whatever it is that caught your attention- you can't possibly shake the thought of having it, and so... You go for it. Maybe you write about it in your journal, and when the words come out onto the paper it gives you chills. Throughout your day, it never really leaves your mind. It becomes a thought so strong that it manifests into your actions. You take the tiniest step in the direction of it, and you feel on top of the world, READY for the desire to become tangible. After time, those tiny steps add up and one day you realize you're there, living what was once a thought drifting by, but instead of letting it fly away, you grabbed it and claimed it.
There's a huge difference there; hope and action.
Do you believe you deserve it? Your answer here is the separation between the two outcomes. You can want something, but unless you believe in your heart that you are worthy of having it, you may not have any drive to actually reach for it. (which you absolutely are worthy of EVERYTHING you could possible desire and MORE) Aaaannnddd the last thing is drive. You are the one who wants that goal, right? Yea.. That means YOU are the one that has to have the drive for it. Nobody else can accomplish your goals for you, that's why its's YOUR life. They can't take from you and they can't do it for you either... So the decision is yours.
How bad do you want it? Are you going to hope for it and wait for something to happen, or will you take action and go after it? Up to you my friend.
You have infinite potential.
You have all the strength and power you need to do anything.
Nothing can stop you except your own doubt.
You are in control.
your passion-driven, passion-fruit-eating Granny J :)
To My Grandkids,
Today I inhale greatness, and exhale all things that slow me down or get in my way.
Since moving to the island, I've met a ton of lovely people on different journeys. It's such a beautiful thing to talk to people with different mindsets and perspectives, so much opportunity to learn there. Last week, our friend Luis took us to a pier on the beach and showed us around. Luis is one of those people that are so deeply genuine, you can't help but love being around him. While we were swimming around and enjoying the sun, he started to share his story with us. For respect of his personal background, I won't go into detail, but he really poured his heart out. While he was talking, I couldn't help but think that his stories did not match up with the kind of person he is.. His background has a lot of mixed events, highs and lows, and from what I've seen in my short life- it's not often that people turn events like that into such a beautiful, happy, fulfilling life.
To top off his sharing, he said (something along the lines of) "I don't have a lot, but I am so happy and thankful for what I have, which makes it feel like plenty."
Wow. Do me a favor and read that again. Now do YOURSELF a favor and read that one more time.. Or 600 more times.
Change your mindset= Change your life.
You can take a person from any situation; homeless, millionaire, unhealthy, health freak, negative upbringing, happy childhood etc etc etc, and they have the potential to live the most beautiful, happy, wonderful life.
It all comes down to your mindset. It doesn't matter who you are, what you look like, your health status or job, dollar amount, or whatever. YOU have the power to make your life into ANYTHING you can possibly think of. The only reason that wouldn't be possible, and I mean the ONLY reason- is if you don't believe in yourself.
It won't be easy all the time, but it is insanely, wonderfully, divinely POSSIBLE.
I don't claim to be some super-wise-youngin who has it all figured out... No No No.
But I have control over my mindset, and I know that I have infinite potential to do anything I could ever dream- and I believe my purpose on this Earth is to help you understand that too.
This life we live- it's amazing!
Life is so good.
Live huge, love often, explore, be curious, and say YES to being your best self.
Your barefoot tits-out-on-the-beach nana J :)
To My Grandkids,
Island life is growing on me :)
We've been here for 2 weeks now, and the experience just keeps getting better and better. Yesterday, we started the morning at a dance class on the beach. We learned some traditional bachata, salsa, and cha cha steps, and channeled our inner 'sexy lady' to be able to move our hips the way the dance calls for. After movin and groovin, we found our way to a beachside bar for lunch- dos piña colada por favor!
Bellies full and spirits giggly, we walked along the beach for a while and found a swing hanging from a palm tree. Of course we had to stop and let our inner child shine; running to push the others as high as possible, rolling amongst the waves as if we were beached fish with no fins to push back to sea, finding a dead palm tree branch to wave in the salty air with coconut on hip... We made our way back to the main beach area which is an old boat dock in a bay. Hours were spent climbing out of the warm turquoise waters onto the concrete structure to run and leap off the edge a hundred more times. Practicing flips, dives, air time, and snorkeling took up the rest of our day together, and it was sweetly topped off with kisses of peach and pink hues dancing across the broad horizon.
As the colors continued to glisten across the ocean, resting the island into moonlit roads, we decided to head back to Lazy Jacks to add a couple more drinks to our tab. For some reason, my drink kept ending up empty so I'd have to ask for another one... Isn't that wild?! Anyway, now it's time to walk home and there's music blaring from a beachside bar... So, actually.. It's time to DANCE! We danced and danced, prancing all around the floor and spinning in and out of each others arms as we cycled partners.
By the time we finished dancing, we had another round gifted to us, and an hour walk home still in the agenda. Barefoot, shirtless, feeling good, and carrying a coconut (that I lugged around with us all day), the 4 of us made the trek home safely, sharing more laughs and stories before the night was over.
Yes we work- but it's mostly play right now :)
And yes mom and dad, I'm legal age here hahaha.
So.. We're kinda in love with the island, and have no plan to leave anytime soon.
This opportunity has been such a blessing, and it still feels surreal that I live on a small island off the coast of Puerto Rico with amazing locals, the coolest roommates, and my lover man ;)
Life is pretty effin good.
I manifested this years ago. I hoped it, spoke it and believed it into existence.
Change your mindset= Change your life.
Your badass life loving nana J.
To My Grandkids,
Sooo, we moved to an island in Puerto Rico!
This has been a big week for me. A couple days ago was September 16th, which is a big day for 'Jordan history'. 2 years ago on the date was my rock bottom. At a young age, I was going through a lot, and felt the weight of the world on my shoulders. I felt intense sadness, loneliness, anger, resentment, and overall hopeless for the near future. I had hit an all time low mentally, and on September 16th, 2019,
When I moved to Montana I started a brand new life. I turned those overwhelming feelings into hunger- ready to get serious about my wellbeing. I started taking care of myself, focusing on my health, practicing yoga, and spending more time alone. In those moments of solitude, I learned a lot. I dropped habits, cut relationships, recognized my desires, and started digging deep. I spent many months learning to heal a years worth of emotional trauma. I took a lot of time to look at the girl in the mirror, love her, comfort her, and recognize her strength for what she'd been through. In all my lessons, one thing rang through boldy, forcing itself to grow, flourish, and change my life: Self Love.
In the 2 years since then, I have seen myself go through many seasons of growth. I am so SO proud of the woman I have become, and I am extremely blessed to be where I am now.
Today, I woke up in a new country with Elliot. 3 planes, 3 taxis, 1 ferry ride, and a short walk later, we ended up at a farm on a small island off the coast of Puerto Rico called Vieques. It has been amazing so far, and we've already made a ton of memories here through several adventures. We will be living here indefinitely as we help rebuild a farm that was home to many volunteers and disaster relief teams.
This is exactly why I started SunGuided. I am using this website as a platform to reach out to young women like myself who are ready to get started on their journey, or who might need some big sister love and encouragement to do so. I am targeting people like myself that felt like their dreams were too big for the world nowadays, and didn't have the support or guidance to know how to reach for it.
This is exactly what I needed 2 years ago.
Life is so good, I am so blessed.
Thank you dear Universe for giving me all that I desire.
And thank you for making me experience rock bottom, it lit a fire in my soul.
Your BADASS island dwelling, self loving, EMPOWERED Granny J :)
To My Grandkids,
Stepping into my power.
Last weekend at the farm we had an Irish music festival, and I thought it would be hard to beat.. This weekend, we have an Old Time music festival (that is still partying for another 2 days) and it has been a blast so far!! We met a pair of newly weds who are super cool, and we've pretty much been glued to the hip with them since we got here. They are one of those souls that just feel familiar, and just makes you believe that something somewhere puts us exactly where we need to be to meet the people we need to meet.
At the beginning of the weekend, Jim, the owner, asked me to lead a yoga class here for the festival. Of course I said YES and was super excited! I have only led one other 'class' and it was very chill and informal, just a couple friends and I here at the farm. Sooo, this was my first 'official' yoga class ever.. WOO! I ran through a practice flow, wrote down some notes for myself, and listened to an hour and a half worth of yoga teacher advice.. Noooo, not nervous at all :)
Saturday morning came around and the class actually had a great turnout! 8 people showed up bright and early, and I got to lead them through a lovely morning flow! I set the mood by pulling some affirmation cards, leading some breath awareness, and a nice uplifting playlist in the background. I got everyone situated into a power pose, looked back at the class, and the emotions hit me. I felt so proud of myself. I'm doing it!! I am standing on this mat, sharing wellness amongst a group, living my truth! This is exactly what I plan to do for my career, and I'm finally here. That moment is the most exhilarating feeling, reflecting on my life right now and being able to truthfully say 'This is better than I ever could've hoped. This is exactly my purpose'. As I was taking it in, a song came on that was called "Right Where You Should Be" by Quinn XCII, Louis Futon.. See my point? It was the cherry on top! This morning I led my second class, and the emotions hit the same. I am so grateful.
As some may know, recently my family lost a very special lady. She was known as a ray of sunshine, and for spreading giggly love to everyone who got the pleasure to know her. Today would've been her birthday, but she is celebrating up in the clouds and stars this time. She has always been very supportive of all of us in the family, and always supported my non-traditional lifestyle.. She was so excited for me to grow into my yoga career, and I know she is so thrilled to see me putting it into action.
After our flow, I was feeling emotional because I was so proud of myself... I heard a little voice in my head.. Good job J!! and an overwhelming wave of love and gratitude- so I know she was proud of me.. She might've been the breeze that pushed me out of my pose too- ornery lady!
This life is whatever you make of it- so make something good for yourself!
I am so blessed.
I am so grateful.
Thank you, Thank you,
Sending love always,
Your loving granny J :)
To My Grandkids,
Damn, Life is so GOOD!
Regarding my last blog about feeling like I fell out of my rhythm, I have been taking the steps I know I need to pull myself out of that funk. I think what I needed most was to realize that I am the only one who has the power to change myself, and make healthier decisions- so I'm getting back into my flow.. DANCING right back into my flow.
This weekend we had some Irish folk come through the camp and man oh man it was so much fun! Friday night I rolled out my yoga mat and sat with the band as they played into the night. My lovely fairy friend Rose had a booth set up to sell some of her hand made Goddess crowns. We shared homemade soup, laughter, thoughts, beliefs, and vibed to the music.
Saturday morning was a very chill, relaxing morning with musicians warming up here and there.. A fiddle tuning its strings, a keyboard for for pitch check, some guitarists practicing riffs, laughter and coffee being passed around. Later in the afternoon we (the volunteers who live here) gathered around Roses' booth again and shared some very special time together. After lots of dancing, a couple cups of liquid encouragement (and maybe a shot or 2..) we got invited to have dinner with the band... FEAST!!
And then the REAL dancing started. I was sitting inside and heard what sounded like a hundred clogs marching about on the back deck.. Count me in!! I hop out and immediately they grabbed my hand and pulled me in for some traditional Irish dancing. They taught me several different styles, and joked that my hippy self clogged around barefoot amongst their strong, loud tap shoes. We danced and danced, laughed, sang, listened, shared, laughed some more, danced some more, and then sat to listen to some beautifully sung Irish pieces.
It was one of the most beautiful experiences I've ever had.
It felt so special for me to be invited in to a group so passionate about their culture, and willing to share that part of their traditions with me!
I feel so filled with love, joy and gratitude for this beautiful life I have been gifted with. I write this with tears in my eyes. I'm so happy. I am so blessed.
I'm polka'd out...
Of all the lives I've ever lived, I'm sure this is the best so far. Thank you.
Your ever-loving, ever-growing, ever-experiencing, EVER-GRATEFUL Nana J ;)
To My Grandkids,
I've been procrastinating this blog...
You know kid, I talk a lot about 'being your best self' and keeping the energy high, but honestly that's not always the case. Yes, being your best self is the goal- on a MACRO scale. But on a smaller level of things, it doesn't always feel that way.
This past couple weeks I've been standing face to face with the emotions that live deep in my being. From feeling burnt out, low day to day energy, anger that has been suppressed, deep sadness for a loved one lost, and overall frustration for having to feel these waves rather than smooth sailing. These times come in waves.
I recently listened to a podcast called 'Your Own Magic; momentum + getting back into your flow' (Raquelle Mantra) and she basically read the thoughts from my head and made it into her own words... She talked about what it feels like when we are in our flow state, when everything flows effortlessly and we feel 'aligned' with our purpose and highest self. When I get into my flow I feel powerful, untouchable, and TRUE to what my heart desires. I feel motivated and excited to work on my business, my personal self care practices, and ready to RUN with my goals. Of course, being in flow is ideal for my best performance overall, and as much as I want to stay there all the time, I must come down to rest, grow, and learn.
I've had these waves before and I noticed that every time it comes around I see it as a burden, and ultimately get frustrated with the lack of motivation. In her podcast she talks about 'honoring the seasons' and allowing these waves to happen; obviously your soul needs rest, or to learn a lesson. Every thing happens for a reason.
So...To my heart: I feel you.
To my soul: I hear you.
To my self: I love you.
And To My grandkids: I pass to you this knowledge of my young self, to let yourself rest when you feel you need rest. Allow time to dig through your shadows and calm your inner river of emotions. We aren't going to flow perfectly all the time, this life is like an ocean wave, up and down, shooting up fierce and bold, only to come back down to rest with a trough. We ride the tide as the seasons change around us...
And then stand back up and jump back into your flow.
This is not sad. I write this from a full heart, and excitement as I get back into my flow. I have been in a subtle rest period, and my waves are building back up as this season comes to an end. I am jumping back into my flow, finding it in the gentle things I love, the small moments that make me feel refreshed and recharged. My energy swelling, ready to sail. I am okay.
Speaking of sailing... This new season comes with new adventure of course.. New scenery... New experiences.. And a one way ticket booked for both E and I..
Stay tuned :)
To My Grandkids,
Alright Alright, it's been a long time coming.
Rosie is... ALIVE!!!
2 Months ago, as you may remember, I had a head on smack down between the van and a deer... and the deer won- no questions asked. The van has been sitting in the shop parking lot all this time (in MT), and now that we live in Oregon, we haven't been able to do anything about it. The shop made it fairly clear that no progress was coming for the van anytime soon- so we hopped on the road to take the situation in our own hands.
When it comes to car knowledge... I don't have much. I can do some basic maintenance things myself; changing my oil, tires, brakes, spark plugs, etc... But trying to fix a head on shmack... It seemed pretty intimidating. As soon as Elliot and I got back to Montana we got the van on a tow truck to be sent to the house, and we headed to the junk yard to get Rosies organs. It was a bit of an adventure to get the parts, because the junk yard was wayy bigger than we thought. The owner loaded us on his four wheeler and took us for a ride through this massive vehicle graveyard, all the way to the back where there was a random blue Dodge Ram- Rosies organ donor.
It took us a couple hours to grab the parts (duh- we didn't know what we were getting into at all.) before we loaded everything back up on the four wheeler and called it a day.
Then comes the fun part.. Now we're shoulders deep in MY van learning as we go.. This screw doesn't fit there.. This piece got hit too.. Grab the duct tape.. This thing doesn't fit anywhere.. What even is that..? Time to hook up the chain and pull the frame back into shape... Where is that leak coming from? Where's my BFH? Oh god that doesn't sound right... And so on.. Lots of figuring it out as we go, and a LOT of questions (thanks for answering my calls every 7 minutes dad..). It was a giant puzzle, and the reward is our house on wheels- no pressure at all! After 2 full days, it was time to turn the key.. Which was surprisingly the hardest part because I kinda expected the thing to blow up. LUCKILY, it didn't blow up... Damn we actually did that.. DAMN WE ACTUALLY DID THAT! We just fixed the van, our home, my safe place, my lovely adventure vessel- BACK TO LIFE!
Something I've learned in my short amount of time on this Earth is that often the WORST things that happen to me end up being the BEST down the road.. 2 years ago I hit my rock bottom, the all time lowest I've ever experienced. Looking back now that moment caused me to take control of my life and GO AFTER my dreams, chasing true happiness. Now, although my sad wrecked van shot a hole through my heart, and a huge dent in our plans- it caused us to go off the path and have the best experiences we wouldn't have gotten otherwise. We have met some of the coolest people out there, and shared some amazing memories at the farm so far. It has also lead to potential travel plans in a couple weeks when we leave the farm- overall so many opportunities we would've missed if the van didn't wreck.
Some things just don't make sense. We throw our hands up in the air with the overwhelming wonder of WHY these things are possibly happening. WHY in the world can I not catch a break? WHY ME?
And there is no answer. There is no WHY. There is no definitive way of knowing- until years later and you look back and see where It took you as a result. Sometimes there will never be an answer.
And sometimes... it leads to the best moments of your life.
Give thanks through the storm, because even if all you see is the thunder and lightening, that same storm is raining LIFE on the flowers, the gardens, the trees.
Yin Yang- there must be a balance.
Your barefoot van livin, beach running, mountain climbing, Nana J :)
To My Grandkids,
This is a lifelong healing process.
Quite a while ago, when I still lived in Montana, I went to a cute little bookstore in town looking for a specific book called 'Be Here Now' by Ram Dass. When I went to the section I looked up and straight ahead of me, tucked perfectly in my view, was the book. Of course I grabbed it, and right next to it was also a book called 'Infinite Self; 33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power' by Stuart Wilde.
Even though that's what I was looking for, the books came home with me and ended up sitting on my shelf getting dusty for some months later.. Now, I've finally picked it up an WOW- it's a trip. In exploring this 'Infinite Self' book, I have started to really re-think why I do the things I do.. And how I got to where I am.. doing these things..
Usually I can only read a chapter or so at a time- it's a lot to take in. This last chapter I read, he talked about the Ego a lot. The ego is kind of like the ID- or your sense of 'Self/ I'. He talked about how the ego needs a sense of security, community, validation, etc. to feel comfortable and safe in this world... However, when the ego feels too comfortable, it can cause you to feel stuck. This world nowadays is revolved around living a comfortable life, having financial and home security, finding security in a locked up relationship, and settling into a safe routine, and judging those who don't fit into those lines. Which is fine if you're into that, those aren't bad things if you are truly happy. Me personally though, that life of routine sounds scarier than the life of risk taking.. If you haven't noticed before, we live in a very egotistical world in general.. see the correlation?
The book talked about how we should be doing things, even small things, to challenge the ego and break the 'norm'. (Taking control of your life through little habits) Wearing a chicken suit to work without explanation, walking backwards for a day, wearing your hair a funky way or talking with a new accent all day.. i.e. skipping college, living in a van, working seasonal jobs, travelling, healing myself and others, doing cold plunges, planning to buy my own land young and run a farm instead of selling my soul to an unsatisfactory job....
I am living a life of challenging the norm, and breaking away from the egos' expectation of what I should be. All I should be, really honestly, is HAPPY and SATISFIED with the life I build for myself, and I cannot hear the voices of people who disagree, I simply block them out. This statement is so important to me. When young people talk to me about their dreams and plans, some sound like their flame has been snuffed so early in life, as friends and family are pushing to follow to the norm, get a degree, get a job, get a wife, pop some kids out, continue the cycle of dreading your alarm clock so you fit in, and leaving them feeling lost at such a young age when they are "supposed to have their shit together".
NO NO NO
If you aren't EXCITED AS HELL telling me about your dreams I'm gonna ask you to stop, put aside their expectations, and tell me what YOU want, where your PASSION is. It's so important to be an influence to people my age and show them that their potential is INFINITE, if you want to travel the world and own a small business and go on amazing trips with people all over the world, YOU CAN. You can shoot for any single thing you could possible imagine, you just have to work for it and make it happen for yourself. Get over your ego, release it, stomp on it, grab it by the throat and tell it that YOU can DO ANYTHING. anything. anything. anything!
A bit all over the place but you get my message right?
You have infinite potential.
I love you.
I see you.
I hear you.
I support you in your wildest dreams.
Graaaaannnnnnnnyyyy J :)
P.s, photo is from an impromtu adventure.. Somewhere in a store in Oregon and an older guy invites us to his private lake beach for a couple drinks with friends.. wild.