To My Grandkids,
I booked that shiz.. a couple times...
Throughout my life, my plans have changed A LOT- if you know me, you know I can't ever make up my mind haha... Well, one thing has always stayed the same- my love for traveling, and my desire to travel the world. Of all the things I've switched up on, (wanting to be a surgeon, scientist, scuba diver, musician, in the army, photographer, etc etc) I've always known I want to travel.
About 8 months ago, I decided to take a trip to Montana to see my mom, and immediately fell in love with this gorgeous state. After going back to small town Cameron, I decided I had to make the move. We had a cruise planned with my family for right before I came, which was AMAZING, and I have a whole blog written about it too, stay tuned ;) So we went on the cruise, and then from there, I flew straight back to Montana. Booked that shiz, did that shiz, it's been great!
Flash forward 3 months, I was looking into going on a trip somewhere, and was brainstorming it for a couple days. One morning, I woke up and decided to go to a coffee shop and do some research.. Long story short, some things led me to finding a place called Goa, India, and I knew right away that's where I needed to go. I started doing some research on it, and I felt so emotionally overwhelmed, and connected to this place I had never even heard of... I was writing down ideas, and the sun broke through the clouds and sent a perfect beam right across my journal where it said Goa.. (This is also how I got the name 'SunGuided' because the sun always guides me when making decisions, and I always follow the sunny places/ bright moments on life- I'll go deeper into that later!) I thought about it for a couple days, and then just went for it...
Feb 1st, I decided to just book it, and stop making excuses.
I am so excited for this next step in my life. I won't be leaving for a couple months, but I am NOT changing my ticket under any circumstances. I am sticking to it NO MATTER WHAT!
When we dream about something, often we see it in our head, and we want to make a move on it, but we either make excuses for ourselves, or we just replay the idea in our head without taking action.. I have always been that way, but dreams will stay dreams, merely a thought that spikes your heart rate when you think about living it- we settle for that feeling, instead of jumping in, and finding a way to make it happen.
Don't settle anymore. Take the first step, and DO IT. Stop thinking about it, and DO IT.
It will be stressful, but that's life. Either make it happen, or it won't.
You'll be so glad you did.
Even though you don't exist yet, I love you so. Dream big. Take a leap. Book the ticket. Grow, learn, and experience. Do It.
Love, your crazy grandma J :)
Seconds after I clicked "Book Flight" on the next chapter of my life --->
To My Grandkids,
Today is my 19th birthday :)
Actually, it’s not really anything special except the fact that this is officially my last year as a teenager… Which is weird, and I feel old. Anyway, I’ve been thinking a lot about what the world will look like when you get these letters. Will the world be advancing still, or are we as advanced as we can be? Obviously we are still advancing in technology very quickly, but how much more can we really do? Maybe more than I could even fathom.. If we did advance incredibly, what effect did it have on the earth? Are there robots walking around with you, teaching you in class, or shopping your groceries for you, or was that just and idea that spun around on TV? WEird. I wonder if the world is a better place, or if it is just as cruel as it can be now. Most people aren’t cruel, but some people are just hungry for a piece of paper that controls the world..
I already feel like I’m living in the past, and I definitely think I should’ve been born into the 60’s. (1960’s) I want to/ (I WILL) travel and live in a van, and spread love and positivity.. Nowadays, people think I’m crazy for chasing a dream like that, but in the 60’s it was completely normal. Weird how time changes like that. It used to be so accepted and supported, and now people just don't understand why I won't just go to college like a "normal teenager"- Not that I really care, cause I don’t, I’m gonna chase my dreams regardless :). So yea, I wonder if stuff like this would be accepted in the society of your age. I wonder what jobs are like for you. Already, some of our jobs are being replaced with AI. I can’t imagine how much more could be replaced 50 years from now. Or maybe by then, people have come together, and our values have shifted to focus on the earth and helping/loving each other rather than tearing each other apart.
A girl can hope.
I hope the world is a better place while you're in it.
Even though you don't exist yet, I love you!
Love, Granny J :)
To my Grandkids,
176 days until India.
So today, I was determined to get away from my phone for a while and get out in nature. Thankfully, it turned out to be a BEAUTIFUL day! I went out to a spot about 30 mins from my house where there is a natural fresh water spout that comes from a mountain. The water is super pure because it comes right from the top, and drains down and is untouched by man. I only went out there to get some water, but when I got out there, I decided to adventure up the mountain a little bit. I started climbing up some huge rocks, and it was so peaceful. All the rocks were covered in beautiful healthy green moss.. The sun was shining down, the sky was clear, and the breeze was flowing through the trees. I kept climbing up the rocks, and found one that was completely covered in moss, and the sun was shining perfectly on the whole rock. It was only about 45 degrees out, so it was still chilly, but I really wanted to take off my shoes, so I ditched the shoes and walked around barefoot on the moss. It was cold, but it felt so refreshing on my feet. I sat up there for about 20 mins and enjoyed the fresh breeze. The spot is right above a highway, a river, a train, and another mountain on the other side of the river. I watched cars pass and wondered what each person was up to. They didn’t even know I was right above them, observing, wondering, living and existing just as they were, but on a completely different path..
After about 20 minutes of relaxing and walking around in the moss, I decided it was wayy too cold to sit up there barefoot (the rocks also had ice on them, it’s still winter!) I went back down to the car and got the jugs that I brought for the water spout. (and picked up some trash on the way back to the car because there was some plastic laying around ugh, why can't people just respect the earth and pick up after themselves??) I grabbed my water jugs and started towards the spout. There was a small motorhome parked at the spout, but nobody around it. I started filling my jugs and a little old man walked out of the motorhome. I said hi to him and the first thing he said was “hey- I’ve seen you before--?” I had no idea who this guy was but he swore he had seen me before.. We started talking, and eventually got on some pretty intense topics.. We talked about life, and how we are taught from a young age to act and live a certain way- following a set of invisible rules that make up our up society. We talked about dreams, and how the dream realm is just as real- if not more- than “reality”. What even is reality? (hahaha I'm not crazy I promise) The question spun in conversation for a minute. We discussed traveling, and living life to the fullest. Why do we waste time living a life of what others expect from us? Happiness is only achieved from following our own heart. When we are children, we should be taught how to meditate and connect with yourself, rather than depending on other people to form our thoughts and opinions. People live their whole life wandering around like lost sheep, searching for something to satisfy their temporary feeling, rather than taking the time to dig deep and figure out what they truly need, and what their purpose is. We discussed the possibility of knowing each other in a past life. We could’ve been best friends, married, animals crossing by, siblings, etc.. The fact that we both felt like we had met, but had never seen each other makes me feel like there is a deeper field of existence in some way- A field that connects us all through life, and existing in different forms at different times. Passing by the same people, and new people, learning new lessons and feeling grateful in every passing by. Meeting people and connections old and new, each for a purpose. Coincidences don’t exist. There is always a reason you end up in the same space and time as someone or something. It’s not accidental.
I was attracted to him like a magnet. His energy was so positive and loving, I could’ve stayed and talked to him for hours. Before we parted ways, I gave him a big hug, and he told me I was a teacher, and I'm meant to help others.
For a second, the sun shined right into his eyes, and I could see he had the exact same eyes as me, freckles and all. I love him.
We hugged again, and finally parted ways.
The second I got in the car, I realized how amazing that moment in time was. A true divine connection, perfectly planned out by some greater being. Something, somewhere, what ever you may believe in- is out there..
I am so grateful that I met him, again---?
Chris, until we meet again..
I’ve had a beautiful day, and I hope you have too. Take a minute to be by yourself and be grateful. Even though I don’t know you yet, I love you. Who knows, maybe I’ve met you before in a different life…
Love, your crazy nutjob Gramma J :)
To My Grandkids,
Stop caring what people think.
For so long, I lived my life based off what others expected of me. For a long time, I really thought I knew myself, but when I look back on those times now, I had no idea what I was doing or who I was. I was just trying to fit in with the crowd. I didn't like to be alone, cause when I was alone, I would think too much and get overwhelmed-
But now, I love to be alone, because I honestly am the coolest person I know. Now, I'm not saying that to be cocky or snotty- but you are the only person you truly have to live with your whole life... So shouldn't you be the person you love the most? When you truly stop caring about what other people think of you, you begin to find your true self. Beyond finding what style fits you, and how you like to do your hair and makeup without being influenced by trends, you find out what your true personality is. It goes deeper than not caring if your hair is greasy today or not- you stop holding yourself back in every aspect of your life. You find out what your true passions are, and where you feel most creative and free. You figure out what you really want out of this life, and it comes straight from what makes YOU happy, not what your high school friends or teachers expected you to do. For some people, their families really want them to pursue a specific career, join the family business, go to college even if they aren't ready, etc etc... And when people follow blindly, and go with what everyone else wants of them, they are stressed out, and don't find true happiness in what they are doing, because they are living someone else's dream life, not theirs.. My dreams are crazy, and my whole family knows that. I want to travel the world, and work for myself, instead of working a 9-5 office job that I am NOT fit for. At some point, I want to live in a camper van, and roadtrip everywhere. I will become a certified yoga teacher, and travel the world while showing others how to practice yoga, and the benefits it has on all aspects of your life. If I would've listened to what everyone else wanted me to do, I'd be in college, stressed out, thousands of dollars in debt, having no clue what to use my degree for... Now don't get me wrong- I'm not saying college is necessarily a bad thing (I think its a big fat scam, but that's a topic for a different day haha) By all means, if you want to go to college, I hope you do AMAZING in college, and I hope your goals are very clear, and you know what you are going to school for. If that path is for you, I support you completely.. But, if you only went because you are following the crowd, or you don't know what else you'd be doing right out of high school, then I have a question for you- WHY? Because you didn't want the people around you to be disappointed, or because you figured it was your only option? You are so young, you have your whole life ahead of you, so why rush?!
This world has UNLIMITED OPPORTUNITES, and it’s never too late to jump into something new. If what you are doing right now stresses you out, and you aren’t happy doing it, then STOP, right now, and find out what you have a passion for. If you are working at a bank, but you hate it, and you just want to focus on your art and music, then make that choice to START NOW. Don’t push it off anymore. Start that shiz TODAY, and make it happen for yourself. For some people, having too many options stresses them out, but the beautiful thing about options is that you never have to settle for something that doesn’t truly make you happy!
When I was a sophomore/ junior in highschool, I was dead set on joining the army… First of all- I’M SO GLAD I DID NOT….. But at the time, when I was considering it, I was being told college needed to be my next step, and I wouldn’t be able to afford it without the military, so it made sense to join and get paid to go to school right? Well, deep down, I didn’t want to be in such a huge commitment at such a young age. What If I got in and hated it? Then I would’ve been stuck for 4 years…… Anyway, I opted out, knowing it wasn’t my thing, and now, a year or so later I work for myself online making my dreams happen. I didn’t need the military or college to be successful. Still, don’t get me wrong, some jobs require college, I understand that.. But I don’t understand people just going to college and wasting money when they aren’t ready just because it is “what they are supposed to do next”...
Don’t waste your time, money, or energy on something that doesn’t truly benefit you. Don’t live anyone elses dream except yours. Take the time to make the decision of what you want to do, because it’s NEVER too late to start anything. Some people are in their 50s when they are in college. It’s never too late to build a better life for yourself.
Even though I haven’t met you yet, I love you!
We’ll meet someday.
Love, Granny J :)