4/8/2020

To My Grandkids,

You would never believe the switch..

Okay, I try to stay humble and keep personal stuff to myself, but this is my space to be open and honest- and well... Toot my own horn, so, toot toot.

     This past year has been the most unexpected year of my life.  A LOT has happened and A LOT  has changed. This time last year, I wasn't doing good.  I was overwhelmed with the challenges life threw in my face, and I was pretty miserable honestly.. Getting into that is for a different day- but I felt at the lowest in my life. Fast forward a couple months, I snapped. I booked a ticket to go to Montana for the NEXT DAY, packed up, and left. I immediately fell in love with this magical place. I stayed for a month, spent a lot of time with Mom and Mark, and felt soo at peace here. Sigh of relief. I went back to Cameron, and was super excited to see everyone again, but I KNEW right away I couldn't be there anymore.. So after a family vacation (yes yes, I will post that blog eventually haha) I moved to Montana.
   Best decision I've ever made for myself.
Yes, I miss my family and friends back home, and I love you all dearly!! But this was written in the stars for me, I know it. I have had so many amazing adventures, learned and grown so much, met so many amazing people who I also love dearly, and have met myself too :)   
     Now, I'm a morning person. GASP, I know. If you know me, that sentence alone should say a lot haha.. Here's my 'toot toot' moment. I have come SO FAR.  I could go on and on, but to say the least, I could not be more proud of the person I am today- a tree huggin, coffee drinkin, shampoo sellin, elderly lovin, yoga doin, plant powered, freak of nature.  I'm pretty amazing honestly. I'm so deeply in love with myself- even mirrors make me swoon...
     ANYWAY, my point of telling you how much I adore myself is this-
YOU are the only person you truly have to put up with for your whole life. You can never escape yourself, so love yourself. Turn yourself into a being you adore. Do WHATEVER IT TAKES (even if it means buying a one way for the other side of the country-or world) to become the person in your wildest dreams. YOU create your life, you are not defined by hard times, financial struggles, relationship issues, etc etc. YOU decide what your life looks like. No need to scroll through dating apps or wait desperately for a lover to come- you don't need a second half, you are a WHOLE person on your own. Look in the mirror, and realize how effin beautiful it is to be here.
     Love yourself. Spoil yourself. Be grateful for yourself. CREATE your life for yourself.
     Be humbly obsessed with yourself. Strive to be the absolute best version of yourself.
     Be everything you could imagine yourself to be, and more. Take care of yourself.

                 I love me, (And you of course, even though you don't exist yet!!) 
     I can't wait for you to hear all the crazy stories of "Your psycho granny did___ when she was younger!" cause my life is pretty magnificent. (toot toot)

                                                                                   Appreciate yourself, kid.
                                                                                         I love you so,
                                                                                                Gran Gran J :)

p.s. stop comparing yourself to others- you are not them, YOU ARE YOU.

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